Sabtu, 26 Oktober 2013


This post i wrote is for personal use ( not relating to any company mentioned below )

Let's the story begin. So, yesterday i and my family finally become one of the prudential insurance company's client. My best friend who invited me to join as official prudential's agent last year. I halfly know about how insurance company works but i eagerly to know more. As what i know, its not something that scary as people have imagined. For god's sake, it is for family future. I say this as a normal person ( not a client nor a member of prudential ). I exactly remembered my first comment when my best friend described this product is one word : brilliant! And still it is, until at the moment i wrote this post.

 I could say my family is my first client. My first yet my very big client ( referred to amount that my family put to this company ! ) Bold statement is my family life in future will be on my hand. Don't you think so? This is tough decision. Tougher than you can really imagine. As i told before, i officially become a prudential's agent LAST YEAR. It tooks me almost one year - to deeply think what's the best for our family - until i submitted my family's case yesterday. If i really money oriented ( or prudential BIG FANS) i will automatically submit my family's case to prudential, right? I get the -more than average- monthly bonus for almost 4 years. I get my passive income. I don't need to worry for the next 4 year's income, so whats actually takes me so long to submit this case?
I told you, this not about the monthly income that i got, Its not about additional bonus i get every xx months. Its about my family's future. Its more about how i minimalize the risk of unexpected thing comes early than you thought.
 It could be anything and it could be happened whenever they want. For me, the scariest yet the inevitable thing is about the death of your loved ones soon or later..

Do u still remember the sudden death of Ustad Jeffry? I couldn't forget this things cause almost every media in Indonesia ( both offline and online ) covered this news as headline. Noone expect the forever departure of UJ gonna be this fast. Everyone definitely love him as one of the most humble and lovable Muslim's leader in Indonesia. UJ with his massive follower, i'm sure that UJ's names in almost everyone's prayer. I remain believe that everyone will pray for UJ's health and safety (instead of his sudden death!). Like we always did in church, we pray for our pastor's health and saftey. Dont you? Nonetheless, everyone's prayer not gonna save you from departure death. It's God plan, noone can change his plan cause he has designed what's the best for all of us.

This is another story. Have you heard a story of any relatives who's attacked by dangerous illness like cancer, diabetes, or any serious illness that have high chance to bring you closer to death? I heard this stories a LOT of times. I just loss my uncle who diagnosed by pancreatic cancer one year ago. One fact that everyone should know, its not about the illness caused you to death. But its about the patient who always think it is just a common illness that they felt. For my uncle's cases, he realized something was wrong with his stomache, but he didnt have enough money to check up to the doctor. He has already sold every single asset that he had, but it still was not enough. Sad isnt it? Until his death, all of the expenses caused, is my big family's responsibility. And he left nothing to his two -not so young anymore child- .I just wonder how's the future of my cousins will be? I come not from rich family, of course my family will help them as much as we can , but there's a time they build their own family and financially independet right?

 We cant prevent this thing to come. But we can prepare before this thing come. One of my way is put my all of family's member to insurance company.Why insurance company? Why not we buy another fixed asset like house which has increasing value of money every year? Yes, you can  invest in every way you think it's profitable. But like what i said earlier, no one can predict it to come. When it comes to all of us, what we need is ready money . Nor a piece of paper which has value of xxxxx million or billion amount of money. Nor a how many hectare of land. What everyone need is cash money. If you're not ready for cash money, be prepare to sell one of your valuabe asset. And im sure it takes TIME... Beside time constrains, you may loss your valuable asset in which probably in ten years later the value increase to 10 times? Are you ready to loss that bigggggg amount of money just because you dont have cash money at that time? Question your self, are u really ready for that? I better to keep my promising growing asset in hand, rather to sell to anyone else. Thats why i use insurance company. Let we do our job, and insurance company do the rest.

Growing up in society that look insurance company like shit, moreover with majority low educational background, will always consider these thing a small matter. Regret will always come late, if it doesnt come late we did not call it regret. I just dont want when it comes to one of my family member, all of we left just tears, bankcruptcy, bank loan, or all sadden things.. i want be ready for the thing i scariest the most! Thats all.

Once again, this story i made is for personal used. Not just because im prudential's agent, i write this. I write this because this thing become a big issue for me. Haunted me day and night. And Finally, its over.

Jumat, 27 September 2013


Never thought our relationship would go this far

Never thought that your good morning message is the first thing i check when i wake up.

Never thought that watching movies with u is my new hobby.

Never thought that you bring me my fav food in the middle of hot sunday.

Never thought that you're always on skype when i was so homesick backthen.

Never thought that you succesfully cheer me up with your super dry jokes.

Never thought that i am addicted to your smell.

Never thought that i gain 3 kgs since im with you.

Never thought whenever i am with you, there are million butterflies dance in all over my body. 

Never thought i would write this..

They say love is one magical thing that could happen to someone.

They say if you're deeply in love, your boyF/ girlF will look more beautiful/ handsome

They say two lovebirds are inseperable

They say love is getting fat together

They say we look like piglet and pooh

I think what they said is undeniable. 

For whatever it is, Thank God for your plan. For let me meet you in his time.

Kamis, 28 Februari 2013

Free time!

One basic principle i hold is to know more about someone else, you have to know everything about your self first. How we gonna treat them is somehow reflection of what we have done to our self. Sooo, one easiest way to "explore" my self more (and luckily its free) by doing this thing while im free..

Here is the analysis they make for me.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior. Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship. The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

what i can say is 90 percent they're right.

Sabtu, 17 November 2012

David Foster and Friends.

When i was 6-7 years old, my dad and mom always listened to beautiful love songs which i really didnt hv any idea what were they about and who the singers were. There was one time i asked to my dad, why he always listened to these -keep repeating- songs in my car and my dad simply said cos these songs were their favourite love songs. Also, the lyric was simply meaningful and the songs itself is beautifully composed.

After those following years, finally i found out that the composer of those beautiful love songs is one of the legend musician in this world, song writer,  composer, arranger, my trully adored "David Foster".  From his cold hand, he has been produced many succesfull musician such as Celine dion, Air Supply, Christina Aquilera, The Bee Gees, Chicago, Earth Wind and Fire, and so on so forth. Last year he held a concert called " David Foster and Friends" in singapore, but too bad, i did not have any friends that really know and enjoy these type of music. I cant blame them cos they all grow up in 20's century while these songs was originally created in 90's century back then.  This year, David Foster, once again held a big concert in singapore, that i heard from some local newspaper, that expensive tickets were sold out only in two days! From what i knew, David concert ticket is the one of the most expensive ticket issued by Sistic Singapore. The ticket itself almost reached $200-300k (Singapore dollar) for VVIP seat. And this year, again, too bad i cant attend this concert cos i study in Beijing! Next year, for whatever reason, i MUST watch this concert in either in jakarta or singapore.
This is one of the best songs that he has composed.
Please enjoy the video.

"Hard for me to say im sorry"
 Everybody needs a little time away
I heard her say, from each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away from each other

Hold me now
It's hard for me
To say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay

After all that
We've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to

And after all that's
Been said and done
You're just the part of me
I can't let go

Couldn't stand to be kept away
Just for the day, from your body
Wouldn't wanna be swept away
Far away from the one that I love
[ Lyrics from: ]
Hold me now
It's hard for me
To say I'm sorry
I just want you to know

Hold me now
I really want to
Tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go

After all that
We've been through
I will make it up to you
Promise to

And after all that's
Been said and done
You're just the part of me
I can't let go

After all that
We've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to

You're gonna be the lucky one

When we get there
Gonna jump in the air
No one'll see us
Cause there's nobody there

After all, you know
We really don't care
Hold on, I'm gonna take you there

Sabtu, 27 Oktober 2012

Wealth and Happiness from Dr.Richard Teo

 I repost this post cos i simply like the way he describes his life.
Hope you guys like it too.
Happy reading

Below is the transcript of the talk of Dr. Richard Teo, who is a 40-year-old millionaire and cosmetic surgeon with a stage-4 lung cancer but selflessly came to share with the D1 class his life experience on 19-Jan-2012. He has just passed away few days ago on 18 October 2012.

Hi good morning to all of you. My voice is a bit hoarse, so please bear with me. I thought I'll just introduce myself. My name is Richard, I'm a medical doctor. And I thought I'll just share some thoughts of my life. It's my pleasure to be invited by prof. Hopefully, it can get you thinking about how... as you pursue this.. embarking on your training to become dental surgeons, to think about other things as well.

Since young, I am a typical product of today's society. Relatively successful product that society requires.. From young, I came from a below average family. I was told by the media... and people around me that happiness is about success. And that success is about being wealthy. With this mind-set, I've always be extremely competitive, since I was young.

Not only do I need to go to the top school, I need to have success in all fields. Uniform groups, track, everything. I needed to get trophies, needed to be successful, I needed to have colours award, national colours award, everything. So I was highly competitive since young. I went on to medical school, graduated as a doctor. Some of you may know that within the medical faculty, ophthalmology is one of the most highly sought after specialities. So I went after that as well. I was given a traineeship in ophthalmology, I was also given a research scholarship by NUS to develop lasers to treat the eye.

So in the process, I was given 2 patents, one for the medical devices, and another for the lasers. And you know what, all this academic achievements did not bring me any wealth. So once I completed my bond with MOH, I decided that this is taking too long, the training in eye surgery is just taking too long. And there's lots of money to be made in the private sector. If you're aware, in the last few years, there is this rise in aesthetic medicine. Tons of money to be made there. So I decided, well, enough of staying in institution, it's time to leave. So I quit my training halfway and I went on to set up my aesthetic clinic... in town, together with a day surgery centre.

You know the irony is that people do not make heroes out average GP (general practitioner), family physicians. They don't. They make heroes out of people who are rich and famous. People who are not happy to pay $20 to see a GP, the same person have no qualms paying ten thousand dollars for a liposuction, 15 thousand dollars for a breast augmentation, and so on and so forth. So it's a no brainer isn't? Why do you want to be a gp? Become an aesthetic physician. So instead of healing the sick and ill, I decided that I'll become a glorified beautician. So, business was good, very good. It started off with waiting of one week, then became 3weeks, then one month, then 2 months, then 3 months. I was overwhelmed; there were just too many patients. Vanities are fantastic business. I employed one doctor, the second doctor, the 3rd doctor, the 4th doctor. And within the 1st year, we're already raking in millions. Just the 1st year. But never is enough because I was so obsessed with it. I started to expand into Indonesia to get all the rich Indonesian tai-tais who wouldn't blink an eye to have a procedure done. So life was really good.

So what do I do with the spare cash. How do I spend my weekends? Typically, I'll have car club gatherings. I take out my track car, with spare cash I got myself a track car. We have car club gatherings. We'll go up to Sepang in Malaysia. We'll go for car racing. And it was my life. With other spare cash, what do i do? I get myself a Ferrari. At that time, the 458 wasn't out, it's just a spider convertible, 430. This is a friend of mine, a schoolmate who is a forex trader, a banker. So he got a red one, he was wanting all along a red one, I was getting the silver one.

So what do I do after getting a car? It's time to buy a house, to build our own bungalows. So we go around looking for a land to build our own bungalows, we went around hunting. So how do i live my life? Well, we all think we have to mix around with the rich and famous. This is one of the Miss Universe. So we hang around with the beautiful, rich and famous. This by the way is an internet founder. So this is how we spend our lives, with dining and all the restaurants and Michelin Chefs you know.

So I reach a point in life that I got everything for my life. I was at the pinnacle of my career and all. That's me one year ago in the gym and I thought I was like, having everything under control and reaching the pinnacle.

Well, I was wrong. I didn't have everything under control. About last year March, I started to develop backache in the middle of nowhere. I thought maybe it was all the heavy squats I was doing. So I went to SGH, saw my classmate to do an MRI, to make sure it's not a slipped disc or anything. And that evening, he called me up and said that we found bone marrow replacement in your spine. I said, sorry what does that mean? I mean I know what it means, but I couldn't accept that. I was like “Are you serious?” I was still running around going to the gym you know. But we had more scans the next day, PET scans - positrons emission scans, they found that actually I have stage 4 terminal lung cancer. I was like "Whoa where did that come from?” It has already spread to the brain, the spine, the liver and the adrenals. And you know one moment I was there, totally thinking that I have everything under control, thinking that I've reached the pinnacle of my life. But the next moment, I have just lost it.

This is a CT scan of the lungs itself. If you look at it, every single dot there is a tumour. We call this miliaries tumour. And in fact, I have tens of thousands of them in the lungs. So, I was told that even with chemotherapy, that I'll have about 3-4months at most. Did my life come crushing on, of course it did, who wouldn't? I went into depression, of course, severe depression and I thought I had everything.

See the irony is that all these things that I have, the success, the trophies, my cars, my house and all. I thought that brought me happiness. But i was feeling really down, having severe depression. Having all these thoughts of my possessions, they brought me no joy. The thought of... You know, I can hug my Ferrari to sleep, no... No, it is not going to happen. It brought not a single comfort during my last ten months. And I thought they were, but they were not true happiness. But it wasn't. What really brought me joy in the last ten months was interaction with people, my loved ones, friends, people who genuinely care about me, they laugh and cry with me, and they are able to identify the pain and suffering I was going through. That brought joy to me, happiness. None of the things I have, all the possessions, and I thought those were supposed to bring me happiness. But it didn't, because if it did, I would have felt happy think about it, when I was feeling most down..

You know the classical Chinese New Year that is coming up. In the past, what do I do? Well, I will usually drive my flashy car to do my rounds, visit my relatives, to show it off to my friends. And I thought that was joy, you know. I thought that was really joy. But do you really think that my relatives and friends, whom some of them have difficulty trying to make ends meet, that will truly share the joy with me? Seeing me driving my flashy car and showing off to them? No, no way. They won’t be sharing joy with me. They were having problems trying to make ends meet, taking public transport. In fact i think, what I have done is more like you know, making them envious, jealous of all I have. In fact, sometimes even hatred.

Those are what we call objects of envy. I have them, I show them off to them and I feel it can fill my own pride and ego. That didn't bring any joy to these people, to my friends and relatives, and I thought they were real joy.

Well, let me just share another story with you. You know when I was about your age, I stayed in king Edward VII hall. I had this friend whom I thought was strange. Her name is Jennifer, we're still good friends. And as I walk along the path, she would, if she sees a snail, she would actually pick up the snail and put it along the grass patch. I was like why do you need to do that? Why dirty your hands? It’s just a snail. The truth is she could feel for the snail. The thought of being crushed to death is real to her, but to me it's just a snail. If you can't get out of the pathway of humans then you deserve to be crushed, it’s part of evolution isn't it? What an irony isn't it?

There I was being trained as a doctor, to be compassionate, to be able to empathise; but I couldn't. As a house officer, I graduated from medical school, posted to the oncology department at NUH. And, every day, every other day I witness death in the cancer department. When I see how they suffered, I see all the pain they went through. I see all the morphine they have to press every few minutes just to relieve their pain. I see them struggling with their oxygen breathing their last breath and all. But it was just a job. When I went to clinic every day, to the wards every day, take blood, give the medication but was the patient real to me? They weren't real to me. It was just a job, I do it, I get out of the ward, I can't wait to get home, I do my own stuff.

Was the pain, was the suffering the patients went through real? No. Of course I know all the medical terms to describe how they feel, all the suffering they went through. But in truth, I did not know how they feel, not until I became a patient. It is until now; I truly understand how they feel. And, if you ask me, would I have been a very different doctor if I were to re-live my life now, I can tell you yes I will. Because I truly understand how the patients feel now. And sometimes, you have to learn it the hard way.

Even as you start just your first year, and you embark this journey to become dental surgeons, let me just challenge you on two fronts.

Inevitably, all of you here will start to go into private practice. You will start to accumulate wealth. I can guarantee you. Just doing an implant can bring you thousands of dollars, it's fantastic money. And actually there is nothing wrong with being successful, with being rich or wealthy, absolutely nothing wrong. The only trouble is that a lot of us like myself couldn't handle it.

Why do I say that? Because when I start to accumulate, the more I have, the more I want. The more I wanted, the more obsessed I became. Like what I showed you earlier on, all I can was basically to get more possessions, to reach the pinnacle of what society did to us, of what society wants us to be. I became so obsessed that nothing else really mattered to me. Patients were just a source of income, and I tried to squeeze every single cent out of these patients.

A lot of times we forget, whom we are supposed to be serving. We become so lost that we serve nobody else but just ourselves. That was what happened to me. Whether it is in the medical, the dental fraternity, I can tell you, right now in the private practice, sometimes we just advise patients on treatment that is not indicated. Grey areas. And even though it is not necessary, we kind of advocate it. Even at this point, I know who are my friends and who genuinely cared for me and who are the ones who try to make money out of me by selling me "hope". We kind of lose our moral compass along the way. Because we just want to make money.

Worse, I can tell you, over the last few years, we bad mouth our fellow colleagues, our fellow competitors in the industry. We have no qualms about it. So if we can put them down to give ourselves an advantage, we do it. And that's what happening right now, medical, dental everywhere. My challenge to you is not to lose that moral compass. I learnt it the hard way, I hope you don't ever have to do it.

Secondly, a lot of us will start to get numb to our patients as we start to practise. Whether is it government hospitals, private practice, I can tell you when I was in the hospital, with stacks of patient folders, I can't wait to get rid of those folders as soon as possible; I can't wait to get patients out of my consultation room as soon as possible because there is just so many, and that's a reality. Because it becomes a job, a very routine job. And this is just part of it. Do I truly know how the patient feels back then? No, I don't. The fears and anxiety and all, do I truly understand what they are going through? I don't, not until when this happens to me and I think that is one of the biggest flaws in our system.

We’re being trained to be healthcare providers, professional, and all and yet we don't know how exactly they feel. I'm not asking you to get involved emotionally, I don't think that is professional but do we actually make a real effort to understand their pain and all? Most of us won’t, alright, I can assure you. So don't lose it, my challenge to you is to always be able to put yourself in your patient's shoes.

Because the pain, the anxiety, the fear are very real even though it's not real to you, it's real to them. So don't lose it and you know, right now I'm in the midst of my 5th cycle of my chemotherapy. I can tell you it’s a terrible feeling. Chemotherapy is one of those things that you don't wish even your enemies to go through because it's just suffering, lousy feeling, throwing out, you don't even know if you can retain your meals or not. Terrible feeling! And even with whatever little energy now I have, I try to reach out to other cancer patients because I truly understand what pain and suffering is like. But it's kind of little too late and too little.

You guys have a bright future ahead of you with all the resource and energy, so I’m going to challenge you to go beyond your immediate patients. To understand that there are people out there who are truly in pain, truly in hardship. Don’t get the idea that only poor people suffer. It is not true. A lot of these poor people do not have much in the first place, they are easily contented. for all you know they are happier than you and me but there are out there, people who are suffering mentally, physically, hardship, emotionally, financially and so on and so forth, and they are real. We choose to ignore them or we just don't want to know that they exist.

So do think about it alright, even as you go on to become professionals and dental surgeons and all. That you can reach out to these people who are in need. Whatever you do can make a large difference to them. I'm now at the receiving end so I know how it feels, someone who genuinely care for you, encourage and all. It makes a lot of difference to me. That’s what happens after treatment. I had a treatment recently, but I’ll leave this for another day. A lot of things happened along the way, that's why I am still able to talk to you today.

I'll just end of with this quote here, it's from this book called Tuesdays with Morris, and some of you may have read it. Everyone knows that they are going to die; every one of us knows that. The truth is, none of us believe it because if we did, we will do things differently. When I faced death, when I had to, I stripped myself off all stuff totally and I focused only on what is essential. The irony is that a lot of times, only when we learn how to die then we learn how to live. I know it sounds very morbid for this morning but it's the truth, this is what I’m going through.

Don’t let society tell you how to live. Don’t let the media tell you what you're supposed to do. Those things happened to me. And I led this life thinking that these are going to bring me happiness. I hope that you will think about it and decide for yourself how you want to live your own life. Not according to what other people tell you to do, and you have to decide whether you want to serve yourself, whether you are going to make a difference in somebody else's life. Because true happiness doesn't come from serving yourself. I thought it was but it didn't turn out that way. With that I thank you.

Sabtu, 20 Oktober 2012

Next path

Hi people! For more than 3 months i do not write anything to this blog. Some routines are left behind and new routines has been added to my life. I have finished my university life since 5 months ago. No more wake up every morning with heavy heart, no more running to catch a bus, no more scary test. They are done! It such a super relieving feeling i had. I went to the next step of my life, the -not easy to answer- question came to my head, what i should do after this? Looking for a job?

Generating some money in my age, for me, it is really something to be proud of. Some of you whenever read this may think "what to be proud of? there is none. Sooner or later all of us have to do it." or some of you may think "What for? You dont have to do this right now. Your mom and dad never limit your spending" But thats not the point. Cos the bold point is, i start how to run up the business soon. Learning all the long of process up and downs. And, keep developing until i can pay daily cost by my self. Growing up in my environment brings me to negative and positive impact at the same time. The positive side is i have many friends from different country and background. But, the negative impact is, it leads me to the such a materialistic environment where everything is measured by money. A simple example, to hang out on saturday night in one of the most hip restaurant n bar in my city. Its not a small amount of money whenever you start of working your self, trust me. Moreoever, its not really worth it cos all i know most of the people spend money to buy something's not important to impress some people they dont event know. I want my life to be simple as i could and fun. To be fun, it doesnt need me to cost lot of money. I believe.

So, i spent a whole time to think about my dream job. I do not know what i will become for the next next years, but whenever i decide enter to the job world, i would choose a job that i really really love and the most i passionate into. I would not choose a job because of the salary. A small salary will do as long as i love my job. I love this quote "You'll get for what you've been done" If i do my job at best, i will get salary thats equally worth to it. Whenever i was a kid, i was longing to become architect, doctor, and lawyer. After i finished my senior high school, i applied to become Architect in Petra and Lawyer in ubaya. But i decided to give up both of them cos my dad seems not happy with my decision. Become a lawyer in Indonesia is like put your self in the darkness, my dad said. So, i went to Singapore to take "Economic and Management" course. Not many people know that i really love talking about politic and economic. And still now, i want to become a diplomat or some job that relates me to those subject. After diplomat, the following job that i hv been dreaming : Photographer and PR :D

Thats why here i am now. I live in beijing for one year to take Chinese course. To be able to speak in different language will be beneficial for me to reach my dream job. Have u thought about yours? Share it :)

Senin, 19 Maret 2012

That night was the longest and scariest day in my 2012's life so far.

Singapore, 14 March
At around 10 pm, i felt sudden cramp in my stomach . It didnt stop there, that pain gradually tortured me as time passed by. I tried to divert my focus by doing something else, but the pain was too much strong. I could not take it anymore.

Singapore, 15 March
At around 3 pm in the morning, i finally decided to go to nearest clinic from where i stay. It was a cold night. I felt my whole body trembling eventhough i have already wear my jacket. I asked my friend to accompany me cause i was unable to walk by my self that night. My friend helped to search for the taxi. After some minutes, she found it and we went to the clinic together.
At around 4 pm after done with the clinic, i sharply consumed the medicine recommended by the doctor. But, my condition did not get any better. Or, i could say it worsen. I vommited like 15 times after that. I did not know what has happened to me, I did not what im supposed to do. All i want at that time was i want to go home to my hometown. I could not stop saying this is hurt to my friend. She was trying to cheer me up and said you're gonna be okay. Everytime i felt the pain, i hugged her tightly. I felt like i want to cry but i kept bear in mind that i am strong girl and this is work. I asked me friend to search me a ticket to fly back home and she helped me to buy.
At around 6 am, I went to mount E cause i did not want be troublemaker during the flight. The pain now is much more powerful. It hurted me so bad whenever i walked. The pain has moved from the top part of my stomach to the right part of my stomach. So, my friend helped me to pull the wheelchair that morning. I spent like 5 hours before my flight in Mount E. The doctor injected me a pain killer to stop the pain and vomit. Luckily, this time, it works! I could sleep like 3 hours while waiting my blood test result. My friend was sitting right beside me. I guess she's sleeping.
At around 10 am, The doctor approached me and explained me about my blood test result. He said something went wrong with my Leukocyte. It two times higher than normal person. To get more clearer picture, he transferred me to the gastric specialist. But, i rejected that cause im afraid i will miss my flight. To be able to walk by my self, it was more than enough. So, i am going back home and prepare the thing to pack. My friend did it for me.
At around 1 am, i went to Changi alone and i let my friend sleep cause she will having exam at night.

Surabaya.15 March 2012
5 pm : I saw my dad and mom waving me outside. I slowly walked approaching them. I walked like 70 years old grandma.
6 pm : I went to gastric specialist doctor. The doctor diagnosed me with appendicitis. He suggested me to have a surgery real soon. So, he directly send me to hospital

Surabaya. 16 March 2012
10 am : I was sent to surgery room. The surgery was scheduled to be finished at 12 am. But, i finished 3 hours more than it have been predicted.

Surabaya, 17 March - ..... now
Living a life after having a surgery is really different thing. I easily got headache at particular time, esp at night cause i frequently had a nightmare about that scary night all over again. I cant sleep soundly cause i easily get shocked by any sound. Also, I can not move my whole body freely like i used to be. I used to go to gym for 2-3 times in a week but i dont think i could not do it in 1-2 months later. Even now i cant speak something loudly caause It consumed my energy and hurted me in the surgical area. I can not eat chicken and all food cooked with salty or sweet sauce. I want this recovery stage to be finished soon. The worst thing is i just cant forget that night and get traumatized whenever i see food with sambal.

To mom and dad and all my family's member, sorry for make you worrying. Im such a bad girl cause i hv spent millions rupiah only in a week. And thank you for your endless love.
To my friend, K, thank you for taking care of me that night. It was the night that i could not forget in my entire life. It must be more scary without you beside me. I owe you my life.
To my other friend who dont know about my condition and asking me why i dont tell them, thank you for asking. But this is not something that i have to tell to anyone not really close to me.
To all the readers, you will not know how precious your life is until you get sick. So, be careful for what you consume.
To my god, thank you for listening my prayer. I am sorry for abandoned you that long.