A Sunday Morning..

That night was the longest and scariest day in my 2012's life so far.

Singapore, 14 March
At around 10 pm, i felt sudden cramp in my stomach . It didnt stop there, that pain gradually tortured me as time passed by. I tried to divert my focus by doing something else, but the pain was too much strong. I could not take it anymore.

Singapore, 15 March
At around 3 pm in the morning, i finally decided to go to nearest clinic from where i stay. It was a cold night. I felt my whole body trembling eventhough i have already wear my jacket. I asked my friend to accompany me cause i was unable to walk by my self that night. My friend helped to search for the taxi. After some minutes, she found it and we went to the clinic together.
At around 4 pm after done with the clinic, i sharply consumed the medicine recommended by the doctor. But, my condition did not get any better. Or, i could say it worsen. I vommited like 15 times after that. I did not know what has happened to me, I did not what im supposed to do. All i want at that time was i want to go home to my hometown. I could not stop saying this is hurt to my friend. She was trying to cheer me up and said you're gonna be okay. Everytime i felt the pain, i hugged her tightly. I felt like i want to cry but i kept bear in mind that i am strong girl and this is work. I asked me friend to search me a ticket to fly back home and she helped me to buy.
At around 6 am, I went to mount E cause i did not want be troublemaker during the flight. The pain now is much more powerful. It hurted me so bad whenever i walked. The pain has moved from the top part of my stomach to the right part of my stomach. So, my friend helped me to pull the wheelchair that morning. I spent like 5 hours before my flight in Mount E. The doctor injected me a pain killer to stop the pain and vomit. Luckily, this time, it works! I could sleep like 3 hours while waiting my blood test result. My friend was sitting right beside me. I guess she's sleeping.
At around 10 am, The doctor approached me and explained me about my blood test result. He said something went wrong with my Leukocyte. It two times higher than normal person. To get more clearer picture, he transferred me to the gastric specialist. But, i rejected that cause im afraid i will miss my flight. To be able to walk by my self, it was more than enough. So, i am going back home and prepare the thing to pack. My friend did it for me.
At around 1 am, i went to Changi alone and i let my friend sleep cause she will having exam at night.

Surabaya.15 March 2012
5 pm : I saw my dad and mom waving me outside. I slowly walked approaching them. I walked like 70 years old grandma.
6 pm : I went to gastric specialist doctor. The doctor diagnosed me with appendicitis. He suggested me to have a surgery real soon. So, he directly send me to hospital

Surabaya. 16 March 2012
10 am : I was sent to surgery room. The surgery was scheduled to be finished at 12 am. But, i finished 3 hours more than it have been predicted.

Surabaya, 17 March - ..... now
Living a life after having a surgery is really different thing. I easily got headache at particular time, esp at night cause i frequently had a nightmare about that scary night all over again. I cant sleep soundly cause i easily get shocked by any sound. Also, I can not move my whole body freely like i used to be. I used to go to gym for 2-3 times in a week but i dont think i could not do it in 1-2 months later. Even now i cant speak something loudly caause It consumed my energy and hurted me in the surgical area. I can not eat chicken and all food cooked with salty or sweet sauce. I want this recovery stage to be finished soon. The worst thing is i just cant forget that night and get traumatized whenever i see food with sambal.

To mom and dad and all my family's member, sorry for make you worrying. Im such a bad girl cause i hv spent millions rupiah only in a week. And thank you for your endless love.
To my friend, K, thank you for taking care of me that night. It was the night that i could not forget in my entire life. It must be more scary without you beside me. I owe you my life.
To my other friend who dont know about my condition and asking me why i dont tell them, thank you for asking. But this is not something that i have to tell to anyone not really close to me.
To all the readers, you will not know how precious your life is until you get sick. So, be careful for what you consume.
To my god, thank you for listening my prayer. I am sorry for abandoned you that long.

Kiss,
F.